Goodbye...

I'm sitting here..
staring at the computer screen
reading a letter that he wrote saying sorry and goodbye.
over and over again. Repeated in my mind.
It seems that my mind can't come to register this.

I thought he was stronger than this.
I thought he would find himself to become stronger and more faithful.
I thought he was going to get passed this.

but I guess not.

To be honest...
A man can only be so strong for so long until the last single straw is pulled out.
and he no longer has any strength left...

I can understand.

So I'm going to respect his decision...

I'm not going to lie.
I feel disappointed, sad, surprised, and angry.

But I know that we all have reasons for doing things.
So I'm going to be supportive and try to understand.
It's sad to think about what will happen to everyone else...
How they'll deal with it all.

He probably did it for others more than he did himself.
The fact that his fellow brothers would be hurt.
The fact that his family would be hurt.
The fact that he would get hurt.

People need to stop being so cruel and realize that they too are not any better than the person that's next to them.
When did the world become so hateful?
Not everyone is perfect.

The past is the past. People make mistakes. Nobody's perfect.
So forgive and forget. Deal with it. Be strong. And keep walking forward.

In my heart...

7-1 is still = 0.